As the story begins, Jenny is having dark nightmares that relate to her current state of mind. Intricately entwined into her life choices are the traumas that she experienced as a child, which are now controlling her psyche. Secrets of the past are revealed as she learns to understand her neurosis.
The beginning of the trauma – Compartmentalising
She is running through the woods, being chased by a beast and her husband is running with her. There is a box, as she enters the box to hide, her husband seals the box shut.
Psychological archetypes; The rescuer, the carer, the seeker, maternal instincts and feminine qualities all come into play in the psychoanalysis of trauma bonding.
Emotional attachments: Jenny dreams she hears a child’s voice, she goes downstairs to the kitchen, she tries to locate a key to open the back door. She panics as she desperately wants to help the child. She opens the door and is greeted by the beast – her shadow. Freeze response.
In the basement, she is now entering her unconscious part of her mind. Darkness and evil. She attempts to befriend and embrace the beast, who retaliates against her. Anger.
The beast is the shadow. Harrison’s or Jenny’s. Her psyche is in danger of being overpowered by either her own repressed anger, or the projections of her husband.
She then dreams of running through the woods, she trips up as she hears her inner child and follows the voice. Her inner voice is cross with her, for abandoning her when she was small. Jenny begins to feel guilt for not rescuing her inner child. She realises now that her father was unable to show her any love, protection or direction. He was absent from her life, therefore, his legacy from his absence, created the complex she needed that glued her to an abusive man.
She revisits her childhood trauma, she goes directly into a memory of conflict when she was a child. (Acknowledging the trauma) She realises how hard she tried to be a good girl, how she tries to resolve conflict when she was small, to help people be happy again. To restore balance and harmony in her home.
To be noticed and heard, she represses the original cause of her trauma to feel accepted as a human being, because as a child, she was forced to grow up, abandon her inner child and become a carer to her mother. Who was also abandoned, by her father. Her trauma, highlights her weaknesses and repressions and gives her the truth about her life development.
Her opinions and beliefs about men, were created by her father. His absence and distance from her life, created the belief that men are unavailable, unless women sacrifice and abandon their values, integrity and principles along with everything they are, to please their man!
To overcome her anxiety, she had to first learn about its origin, to overcome her pain, she had to face her shadow. Her husband. A direct reflection and mirror, to her internal psychological beliefs.